Present faith...shaken

It never rains, but it pours, and then it floods...big time! God is in control-I've known that all my life, but I have to admit, it is so hard to let it all go when it seems nothing is going to work out...financially, physically, emotionally...I know in the future this will all seem so simple, but right now, it is so far from it, and I see no solution, except to pray like I've never prayed before. God sees and hears it all, and I trust him unconditionally.

Summer Holidays

Well, scholl is over for another year and on Wednesday I will see my little girl graduate from Grade 1 to Grade 2, commencing in September 2006. Wow! I cannot believe the tiny 7 lb. baby I had 7 years ago is now a tall, slim, beautiful girl on her way to becoming a woman in only the blink of an eye. Ok, NOW I feel old! I'll be 29 in July and though I am still considered young(haha)life goes by so quickly it ages a person so fast...summer should be fun, we have so much planned: Banff, Drumheller, the Zoo, Heritage Park, Calaway Park, waterparks, and just keeping the kids busy. The nice thing about it is I only have 1 full time dayhome child for the summer, and 1 part time, so it leaves me able to do more things. Bad thing is the income drops...ALOT! But I'll survive...heehee...

Please remember me in your prayers for Tuesday morning. I go before the judge at 9:15 a.m. and I am so stressed about the whole thing, I can't even begin to explain how much!!! God is in control though! In Jesus Name!

8 years of...

Well, this is called words from the heart so...sigh...today I have been married for 8 years to a man who has proven to have no desire for anything in my life. I have to say after this long, with prayer and fasting and begging God to do something, I am at peace with most of what has happened. I still feel frustrated alot when I think of my future, as I would like to remarry and have more children, but I know God has a plan, so here I sit and wait. I do pray for him constantly, and will never stop, and encourage my children to do the same. One day, regardless of how, God will do something!

My Brother

Well, 26 years ago today at 12:50 a.m, I was blessed with a new baby brother, Michael David Wayne Steinberg. As an almost 3 year old, I was jealous, angry, but really curious, and eventually fell head over heels in love with him. Yes, we fight, even now, but sibling love overcomes all those minor details. Mike has been through so much in his 26 years-cancer, surgeries, leaving church and renouncing his faith in God, a painful breakup with a girlfriend of many years, but here he stands, and just recently has decided to completely change his life. In other words, he knows he needs God, and has chosen to give his life back to the One who has done so much for him. I pray for him constantly, and just want him to know...I love you Bro, and I KNOW you can do it!

Happy Father's Day, Daddy!

To my dad: The man who chose a woman to be his wife The woman who gave his daughter life The daughter who raises her children alone The man who steps in to be a dad again Bear hugs, sloppy kisses and bedtime stories Pain, sorrow, and alot of teenage worries Sharing the grief of a daughter's loss Assuming the place of a figure lost How can I find the words to say How much you mean to me today I love you Daddy, with all my heart I pray our bond will never be torn apart I love you Daddy!!! God bless you! Thank you so much for everything you have done for me. I could never, ever, ever repay you for what you have done for my children and I. I pray for you always! Love your daughter, Amy

Strong Faith

I had a rather strong confrontation with a person today that left me reeling with shock, disappointment and such overwhelming sadness; we were able to communicate though and solved our problem quickly. The amazing thing about the whole situation was it made me stronger in my spirit-my faith was built and I felt like I could handle anything after that! Thank God I didn't have to...we have our trials and temptations for a reason and it is to do just that-build faith, strengthen us, and help us help others. If you are reading this, I love you my friend, and thank God for you, and I am praying for you too, that God will help us both!

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Happy Birthday my firstborn!!!

I fully intended to write yesterday, but as my internet was down...impossible. So here I am today, saying happy birthday from yesterday to my precious baby girl. At 2:00 in the morning, 7 years ago, God blessed me with a beautiful little girl perfect in every way. Blonde, with big blue eyes like her mama, and just a wonder to behold. Every day spent with her is a joy to me and continues to get better. She is now blessed with a wonderful family as well, a precocious, but cute little brother. awesome grandparents(Papa & Nana)who have stepped in to fill the void left without a father, and a crazy uncle Mike who loves her to pieces! I love you my girl, so much and think you are the prettiest girl in the world! Love your mama

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Flash!

I have to share this with you! My son loves to play dress up, usually as a superhero of some kind and yesterday's superhero was just too funny to keep to myself. He was Flash, and in his underwear and a cape he raced around pretending to just be fast and cool. I grabbed him at one point and kissed him and he said,"Back off, human, or I'll...I'll flash you!" I have to admit I had to sit down I was laughing so hard. Of course he had no clue what he had just said, but it was pretty hilarious at the look on his face. He probably thought we were weird, but hey, ok! I love my little boy sooooo much! He is the sunshine in my life!!!

Termination of parenthood

Well, friends, I have another prayer request for ya'll!!! I was in court again today, filing the last(hopefully)of papers to terminate the parenting relationship John Miller has with my children. There has been no contact from him since before Christmas to them, and twice only to me, both times not the greatest conversation...legal counsel portrays this as abandonement of children, so I am moving forward to make it legal. I am praying constantly about this, as even I still hold reservations about such a momentous move, but I will do anything to protect my children from hurt. God knows, and I ask you to please, remember me in your prayers...

Rachel Goff

Ok, it is brag on Rachel day!!! I am just in a weird mood today and since I am soooo excited about my friend's baby which I might add is due in September, I am going to dish on her...hehehehe...scared, Rach??? Well, let's see...how long have we known each other? Let's try going on 24 years? Yep, hard to believe, but yes, we have been friends, enemies, through thick and thin, fat and skinny(you can figure out who's who) for all those years! Thanks Rach for being my friend, and sticking with me! You are a one of a kind person, and they broke the mold when they made you!!! Now, 2 precious girls and a new baby later, you are still just as beautiful, witty, and an even better gal than you were yesterday! Love ya!!!

Pentecost Sunday

All around the world today, UPC churches are celebrating Pentecost Sunday, the birth of the church. I would have loved to have been there at the Azusa Street revival!!! We only have one service today, at 2:00, but it should be a good one!!! The Truth Church Sanctuary Choir is singing "The Wind is Blowing Again" and "Holy Ghost Power is Moving."

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Yard Sale

Hey everyone! Check out the yard sale at the church today! It's got some really awesome things, and I was able to get my dad's Father's Day gift waaaaayyyyy cheaper than I expected!!! I have to say I haven't been garage saling at all this year yet, but I am dying to go!!! One of these days...

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Prayer for a friend

Hey, all! Let's not forget to pray every day for Nikki Yarborough! She really needs a touch from God...a miracle really. I had such a burden for her on Wednesday, and sometimes I so wish I could do more. Prayer works though, so let's not give up!!! Love ya Nik!!!

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